Tuesday, May 6, 2014

What A Guy Wants

Wherever you go, whenever it is, that’s something that we always crave for, it’s FRIEND! As most people dislike lonely feel.

What kind of friend do you look forward for? People who could spend most time with you? Just a rich people enough? Well, different personality and different preferences. Needless to say, I will not know how people think. Let’s leave it and talk about mine.

Sound ridiculous, but is happening. I was having the problem of relationship management. I seem like been boycott from the group of good friends who are closest for many many years. Initially thought we will be the best friend forever since we know each other such a long long time. But people change while time pass, relationship is fragile easily as glass. Time and relationship always cannot be directly proportional. Do you ever feel? Whatever you talk, whatever you do, seem like wrong, gonna make them feel uncomfortable. Apparently, it’s me at this MOMENT!

Do you ever experience that you had car problem when you friends just opposite the road where you were. But they just throw off ‘Now the traffic is extremely congested, we can’t go there, you wait for the help from your family since you said they are coming!’ and drive away. Needless to say, I was very disappointed what they did. The story will never end like these. Night of the same day, I received a call for drink from the same friends once I settled my car and I agreed. Why join them for drink? Because it’s such a good idea at that moment I would say. I really need to decompress from the negative emotions I had since I was stuck at there for 3 hours long due to the silly reason. What an unexpected, I intend to meet them for tea time but eventually become their driver who sits there to wait them finish work from 8pm to 1am and drive them back without any TEA SESSION. WTF!! How IDIOT!! Why I have to wait so long? Because they ask me to meet them immediately without any inform me about the damn long wait and keep convince me to wait for the tea session after work. If not, definitely I will drive back home IMMEDIATELY!!

There’s nothing right or wrong on the world. But people always judge by number game. Most people dislike me, which means there’s something wrong with me. HahaHaiz. Speechless!

I’m only human. I have feeling, I make mistakes, I have unpleasant side, I am NOT perfect. I’m so tired of living under the pressure like that. Every time I try my best, it still seem like it’s not good enough for. Why do you guys have concentrate on my pettifogging little shortcomings instead of appreciating me for how much I’ve already try. I’m weary and despondent. Yes, the world is tough. Especially when someone you used to be so close, betrays you, talk shit behind your back.

Move on, keep track on your life because you might miss something precious if you're drowning over the past. 

In the times like these, a quote with my 38 friend always motivated me,
A true friend will never ever leave you alone, whenever and wherever!’ - (Well, I named it as 38 quotes)
That 38 friend told me the same things too. You know? I’m so glad to hear that.

Someone asked me that how could I willing to sacrifices so much for them who just a friend. I answered it is worth if they are true friend. It’s precious of my life, I treasure, believe, and will never leave them behind! What do you think?